The First To Know.

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the first to know.

 Abigail Johnson. 

Publisher  Harlequin Teen.

Publication Date: November 7,2017. 

Genre:YA Contemporary| Romance.

Format Reads.|Pages: Hardcover|336. 

 Source:  Goodreads|Library.

CONTAINS SPOILERS

Dana Fields's father never knew his parents. When Dana secretly does a DNA test for her dad, hoping to find him some distant relatives for his birthday, her entire world implodes. Instead of a few third cousins, Dana discovers a half brother her age whose very existence means her parents' happy marriage is a lie.



Dana's desire to know her half brother, Brandon, and the extent of her dad's deception, clashes with her wish not to destroy her family. When she sees the opportunity to get to know Brandon through his cousin, the intense yet kind Chase, she takes it. But the more she finds out about Brandon, her father's past and the irresistible guy who'll never forgive her if he discovers the truth, the more she sees the inevitable fallout from her own lies. With her family crumbling around her, Dana must own up to her actions and find a way to heal the breach—for everyone—before they're torn apart for good.

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A heartbreaking, yet a beautiful story.



I had no idea how heartbreaking this book would be. I knew that it would be emotional when I read the summary, but did not realize how much. My emotions are everywhere. I felt as it was my heart that got broken while I read this book. I can’t even begin to imagine finding out something like that. If it were me, I don’t think I would be able to hold a secret for as long as I had. I would demand answers. I do understand why Dana did, at first she was in denial at first. She went from thinking that she found her grandfather, to finding out that she had a half brother, that wasn’t that much older that her. I can’t even begin imagine coming across information like that. Like her sister, Selena I knew that nothing good could come out from this DNA testing. I know that she wanted to find her father’s family, but what she found is that her father wasn’t who she thought he was. My heart broke from her, for having to deal with it for as long as she had alone. My heart broken even more when Brandon wanted nothing do with her, and when Selena didn’t believe her. Dana’s pain became my pain. I felt all the emotions that she went through. There were times where I wanted to give her hug. Despite how she found out, how hurt she was, she did not give up on trying convince Brandon to try get know her family, their father. Despite how much hurt her caused, she still loved him, and still wanted her father to try get know her son.



Brandon, he was cold towards Dana. What happened, wasn’t her fault. But I think he might blamed her for telling him in first place. If she never contacted him or showed up at his work, he might not know. From what Chase told Dana, it affected Brandon a lot, and not in a good way. I believe that it would affect anyone. Finding out, that your dad is not who you thought he was, how do you get over that? I know that he handled it the best that he could. At least he finally got up and meet his father, for first and last time. I bet that was one of hardest things that he had to do. The relationship between Chase and Dana was cute, and I could see how much he cared about her and there was part of me that hoped he would never find out the truth. I rooted for him, I hoped that he would find it in him to forgive her, or at least start to. I know that he was hurt because he thought that she used him in attempt to get more information on his family. I think maybe she should have been honest from him from the start and it could been avoided. Dana did try get information from Chase, at the same time she helped him with his mom, helped him clean her house. I don’t think that she would done that if she didn’t care about him.




My heart broke for all of Dana’s family once the truth came out. What I didn’t expect was for her mother, to know about affair, yet still stayed with him. I wondered if she stayed because of the kids. It was clear to me, how much she loved him, considering how affectionate she was with him after she found that he had a son. Not right away but soon after. It’s clear how much the two of them loved one another, despite what she gone through. I know it might take Selena and Dana a while to forgive him, if they can forgive him. At same time I know that in the end, that they will be okay. They are strong, they can make through this. I loved the realthionship that Selena and Dana had, what they had is special bond that not every sister shares. My heart broke for Dana and Selena when Selena drifted from Dana for while after the truth came out. I wanted to talk some sense into her. I know that she was hurting as much as Dana, that not talking to her was making her miserable. I was smiling when they finally resolved their issues.



THE FIRST TO KNOW was the first book that I read by ABIGAIL JOHNSON and it won’t be last. How did I not read her books before? I couldn’t stop turning the pages. I wanted to see how it would get resolved, if it get resolved. It took me on such emotional roller coaster that I am still thinking about it. I can’t seem to get the story out of my mind. I keep wondering what happened after the story ended. A heartbreaking story, yet a story that will stay with you.

The Impossibility Of Us.

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the impossibility of us.

 katy upperman. 

Publisher  Swoon Reads.

Publication Date: July 31,2018.

Genre:YA  Contemporary Romance.

Format Reads.|Pages: Hardcover|305.

 Source:  Goodreads|Bought.

 CONTAINS SPOILERS

The last thing Elise wants is to start her senior year in a new town. But after her brother’s death in Afghanistan, she and her mother move from San Francisco to a sleepy coastal village.



When Elise meets Mati, they quickly discover how much they have in common. Mati is new to town too, visiting the U.S. with his family. Over the course of the summer, their relationship begins to blossom, and what starts out as a friendship becomes so much more.



But as Elise and Mati grow closer, her family becomes more and more uncomfortable with their relationship, and their concerns all center on one fact—Mati is Afghan. 

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My heart, my emotions. I knew that this book would be emotional. I didn’t not prepare myself enough on how emotional. I cried along with Elise, with Mati, I felt angry of how Elise family treated him. I felt all the emotions that both Mati and Elise felt. I loved KATY UPPERMAN KISSING MAX HOLDEN that’s when two of us met and ended up becoming friends. THE IMPOSSIBILITY OF US was different from her debut novel, but in a good way. A story that deals with very hard subject, a story that you will fall in love with. I knew that it would be a story that I would love only after reading couple pages. I couldn’t, no I didn’t want to stop turning the pages. I was caught up in Mati and Elise’s story, I was curious about them. There was part of me that hoped that two of them would find a way to be together, that Elise family would accept him. I felt horrible, sad for Mati on how he was treated, how others judged him because he was from Afghanistan. Fact that Elise tried to prove to her mother and sister in law how different he was. I understand that both were all basing it on fact that Nick died in Afghanistan, and they only reason they judged him. Of course, that doesn’t make it right. I know that they couldn’t be together because of that.



I saw connection between Mati and Elise from start. I do believe that Mati helped Elise, deal with the sudden move easier. I’m pretty sure that she didn’t plan to fall in love. I did see her have her hesitation when she found he was Afghan. At same time, I know the reason she ran away is because it reminded her of her brother Nick, of his death. I was glad that she decided to go back and to apologize to him. I hated how her family tried to keep them apart, I understood why they did but that didn’t make it right. I feel that Elise’s friendship and relationship with Mati tore the family apart, they seemed to drift a bit apart because of it. That made me sad that it came to that. I wish that they could see that he was different and see how happy it made Elise. To them that didn’t matter, they didn’t even want to give him a chance. I can’t even begin to imagine how Mati must felt. He got jumped because of who he was. If it were me, I would leave so that I didn’t have to deal with it, with all the hate. I loved fact that it didn’t stop Mati and Elise from seeing each other, from being with one another. Despite how their families felt about it. The two of them, they didn’t give up. To me, that’s real love.



I have read few books that were written in free verse. I loved that Mati’s point of view was written in Free Verse. It felt like a poetry, a beautiful poetry. I loved reading from his point of view, it made me understand his thoughts, his feeling much more. Writing from point of view from both Elise and Mati’s point of view worked so well. I think that reading from both of their feelings, it helps you connect with both of characters. I felt as I could feel what they were feeling. THE INPOSSIBILITY OF US I had this strong feeling like I became part of their story. When I reached the end of the story, I felt sad as I was saying goodbye to long time friends. Mati and Elise were my favorite characters but I also loved Ryan and Xavier, they are type of people that I would love to be friends with. The type of friends that I could go to if I needed to. Bambi, don’t you just love that name? I Love Disney movies and that happens be one of my favorites. Of course Janie too, how can you not love her? In general, I loved most of the character’s in book, including Mati’s father. Plus the cover, isn’t it stunning, and the title, it fits the story so well.



A beautiful, heart aching love story. I can’t stop thinking about it. KATY UPPERMAN did it again. I can tell already that she will be an author that everyone will love, will talk about. I’m already excited what she will come up with next. I can’t wait to see what adventures she will lead us on next.

Your Destination Is On The Left.

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your destination is on the left.

 lauren spieller.

Publisher  Simon Schuster.

Publication Date: June 26, 2018.

Genre:YA Contemporary Romance.

Format Reads.|Pages: Hardcover|304.

 Source:  Goodreads|Library.

CONTAINS SPOILERS

Dessa Rhodes is a modern day nomad. Her family travels in an RV, their lives defined by state lines, exit signs, and the small communal caravan they call home. Among them is Cyrus, her best friend and long-time crush, whom she knows she can never be with. When your families are perpetually linked, it’s too dangerous to take a risk on romance.



Instead, Dessa looks to the future. She wants to be a real artist and going to art school is her ticket to success and a new life. There’s just one problem: she hasn’t been accepted…anywhere. Suddenly her future is wide open, and it looks like she’s going to be stuck traveling forever.



Then an unexpected opportunity presents itself: an internship working with a local artist in Santa Fe. Dessa struggles to prove to her boss—and herself—that she belongs there, but just as she finally hits her stride, her family suffers an unexpected blow. Faced with losing everything that she has worked for, Dessa has a difficult decision to make. Will she say goodbye to her nomadic lifestyle and the boy she loves? Or will she choose to never stop moving? 

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A heartfelt, stunning story.



Don’t you love discovering new story? New Author. I been hearing about YOUR DESTINATION IS ON THE LEFT before it was published, on goodreads, twitter. I would have read it sooner, if it wasn’t for holds at the library. I love stories about road trips, there is something about traveling that pulls me into story. I believe maybe because I did used go camping, traveling a bit with my family through the years. I remember when I moved to Arizona for few months with my parents, we drove there and I had fun seeing all those states we drove through, stopped at. Once I read YOUR DESTINATION IS ON THE LEFT I wanted to go on that journey, I wanted to travel. I do understand why Dessa got tired of it, especially if you been doing it for a while. I do think that part of her decision not wanting to travel anymore, want go to college is because she wanted independence, more privacy. I can’t even imagine how it must be to be in RV with your family for such long periods of time. I was heartbroken for Dessa where all those colleges rejected her. To me, it felt that Dessa was the only one who didn’t enjoy traveling anymore, even when Cyrus tried to convince her otherwise. There is only so long you can travel before you want to settle down.



I know that getting internship with Fiona in Santa Fe, was good for Dessa. It’s all thanks to Cyrus. If it wasn’t for him, I don’t think that she would even applied. That shows me how much he cares about her, how he wants her to be happy. The two of them had such a cute relationship and I was rooting for the couple all way through the novel. There is part of me that feels that I was more heartbroken that the two of them towards the end. I don’t believe that neither of them were expecting it. The moment that Cyrus cried, I teared up. I can’t even begin to imagine when you finally get be with someone you always wanted be, only to have to leave them behind in the end. I’m not sure if I be able to go through with it. I do wonder what happen with them after, if the two of them would reunite in future and what would happen when they did. There also part of me that wondered where they would be now, if Dessa decided to keep on traveling. I understand why she didn’t. That job opportunity is big for her, and it something that she loves. If she didn’t take it, she would always regret it. That’s what I loved about Fiona, she taught Dessa a lot, at least that what I think. Dessa turned into a different, more confident person that when she started the internship. I believe that she even felt more confident in her own art as well.



YOUR DESTINATION IS ON THE LEFT one of those stories, where you will fall in love with story from minute that you read it. I couldn’t stop turning the pages, each page had me craving more. To me, the story was real, and I felt as I became part of that story while I was reading it. I wanted to become part of it. Not only was the story, the characters were amazing, I loved the cover and the title. Just look at the cover, isn’t it beautiful? How can you not fall in love with it? How can you not want to pick up the book? Both the cover and the title fits the story so well, and describes Dessa’s emotions at times so well. LAUREN SPIELLER I already know by reading her debut novel that she will become one of my favorite authors. I want to read her other stories, I need to know what adventures she comes up with next. A book that deserves all five stars. A story that you won’t forget.

Tiny Pretty Things (Tiny Pretty Things, #1)

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tiny pretty things.

Tiny pretty Things, #1
 sona Charaipotra
dhonielle clayton

Publisher  Harper Teen.

Publication Date: May 26,2015.

Genre:YA Contemporary|Thriller.

Format|Pages: Hardcoverr|448.

 Source:  Goodreads|Library.

 CONTAINS SPOILERS

Gigi, Bette, and June, three top students at an exclusive Manhattan ballet school, have seen their fair share of drama. Free-spirited new girl Gigi just wants to dance—but the very act might kill her. Privileged New Yorker Bette's desire to escape the shadow of her ballet-star sister brings out a dangerous edge in her. And perfectionist June needs to land a lead role this year or her controlling mother will put an end to her dancing dreams forever.



When every dancer is both friend and foe, the girls will sacrifice, manipulate, and backstab to be the best of the best. 

 

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I heard about this book, and I haven’t had chance to read it. When I came across it while I was at library, I decided to check it out. TINY PRETTY THINGS wasn’t what I expected it to be, but so much better. I couldn’t get enough of the story. I love any books that has anything to do with dancing. I loved fact that TINY PRETTY THINGS had to do with ballerinas, I always thought that ballet was beautiful. I know that I never be available to do it but I enjoy watching it. I loved the fact that it was The Nutcracker, I am Russian and I actually seen the ballet live with my mom few years back. I was aware that everyone was competing for the lead role, for the role that would get them noticed. What I didn’t expect was how far they would go. Considering what happened to Cassie, but even I wasn’t aware that the drop was set up, I was sure that it was accident. After what happened to Cassie, I didn’t think that she would come back, so it took me when she did show up towards the end. Gigi was the one that I felt horrible for, the things they done to her, how they tortured her. I know they did, hoping they get her to leave. If it were me, I would have. I wouldn’t been able to handle it, I would have gotten away from there as fast as I could. Bette, I never liked so it didn’t take me by surprise what she done. But June, Gigi was her friend and she was nothing but nice to her. I had feeling if Gigi found out, that would be end of their friendship.



I liked Gigi, even with everything that she was going through, her heart condition. Not once did she even think of giving up, even after someone put glass in her shoe. She kept on going, she kept the goal in her mind. I do wish that she would taken her heart condition more seriously than she did, that could cost her life. I understand why she didn’t want others to find out, considering how she was treated. But not taking it seriously could cost her life. I don’t blame her mother for worrying. Dancing can’t be that good for someone with her condition. I did like her dedication, her determination. I know that what those girls did to her, got to her. However that didn’t keep her from her goal. I was afraid for her though, the bullying and the pranks kept on getting worse each time. I was afraid that it would come to the point where they would go too far. The ending proved that. I was glad that she had Alec, I could tell how much he cared about her. I feel that their relationship seemed more real, then when he was with Bette. I think that besides dancing, being with Alec was the only time that she actually seemed happy. Gigi needed someone like Alec.



I wasn’t too fond of June either, how she treated Gigi, even though she was always there for her when she needed her. All because she was jealous. She would do anything to get the role, and what she was doing to herself , is not way to do it. I know that if she kept it up, she would get herself kicked out. I was surprised she was able to do it for as long as she did. I do know if she keeps it up, she wouldn’t just get herself kicked out, she would land herself in the hospital. Bette, there was nothing I liked about her. Especially once I found out that she was one to told Will to drop Cassie. Who does that? I am not surprised that she got blamed for pushing Gigi in front of the Taxi. Yet I wasn’t convinced that she was the one that did, that she was getting set up. Part of me wondered if it was Henri, to try to revenge for what she did to his girlfriend, Cassie. I think that the ending had me asking more questions. I couldn’t wait to pick up the next book in series and see what happened. TINY PRETTY THINGS is a book that will have you on edge of your seat, and it will have you wonder what will happen next, how it will all end.



TINY PRETTY THINGS is a book about jealously, betrayal, revenge and how far someone will go to get what they want. It’s filled with drama, suspense. Be ready for a thrilling ride.

The Complication (The Program, #6)

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the complication.

The Program, #6
 suzanne young.

Publisher  Simon Pulse.

Publication Date: April 24,2018

Genre:YA Fantasy |Romance

Format|Pages: Hardcoverr|464.

 Source:  Goodreads|Library.

 CONTAINS SPOILERS

Every cure has a cost.



Tatum Masterson learned this after years of being monitored by The Program. She witnessed it when her boyfriend, Wes, came back changed, erased. And now, even the newest “cure” has a heavy cost—one she and Wes paid.



The Adjustment came into Tatum’s life just when she thought she needed it most, a promise for Wes to get back his forgotten memories. But when the procedure went wrong, a revelation shattered everything Tatum thought she knew.



Now, with no one left to trust, Tatum must find out what really happened last summer. And with the help of the boyfriend she lost, Tatum will have to dig into the past and future of The Program and its handlers.



And discover the true cost of a cure. 

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I fell in love with the series when I read THE PROGRAM back in 2014, and it was the first book that I read by SUZANNE YOUNG . I fell in love with all the characters, the storyline and I loved how different set of characters were featured in the books. I’m sad that the series is over, because there is part of me that feels that I became part of their world and I know it’s fictional but that’s how these books touched me. Ever since reading the first book, SUZANNE YOUNG became one of my favorite authors and The Program one of my favorite series. THE COMPLICATION was an remarkable ending to a breathtaking series. I know for fact that this is a series that I won’t forget, I even recommended it to my best friend. There is a lot going on through the series and you will get hooked from the first book until the last one. I’m positive that this is going to be a series that I am going to re – read few times in the future. I am still smiling at the ending. James and Sloane, I loved them from the beginning and I’m so happy that the two of them got their happily ever after. With everything that the two of them had to go through, they deserved it.



I loved Wes and Tatum ever since I read THE ADJUSTMENT and I rooted for them to find their way back to each other. Those two, just like James and Sloane, they belonged together. I hated the fact how the others tried to keep them apart. I was hoping that once again that they find they way to one another again. Even though Wes memory was erased, he still attached himself to Tatum, as if he knew or at least part of his brain knew. I wish that Tatum didn’t lie to him when Wes asked about their past relationship, and I understand why she did it. I also knew if Wes found out he would be hurt. What the two of them had was love. Despite what others told them, how they tried to keep them apart. In the end they were always there for one another, their love for one another was always there. I love that the two of them could finally be together. I think that being with each other is one of things that truly made the two of them happy. I’m glad they could finally be with each other.



I loved that all the characters made appearance in the last book. I wasn’t expecting that so it was a nice surprise. It made the series come together so much better. I loved the ending, the one with James and Sloane. A beautiful, happy ending. I was smiling and crying at the same time. There is still part of me that doesn’t want to say goodbye. There wasn’t a single book in the series that I didn’t love. Each book had me craving for more. Ever since the beginning I did wonder how it was going to end. There were a lot unexpected twists through the series. I know I should be used to it when it comes to this series. Yet, the twist in THE COMPLICATION was the one that even I did not see coming. I was in shock just like Tatum was. To find that your whole life is not what you were told. How do you move past that? How do you forgive? But I know that with Wes, her friends and I know that her grandparents love her. The way they were always there for her, and would do anything for her, I know that they love her and Tatum knows that. This book, the series had me going through a lot of emotions. I was on edge of my seat until the end.



The Program is a series that I will recommend to everyone. You won’t regret it. You will fall in love. Once you finish it, you will want to re-read it all over again. A beautiful, thrilling story that will always stay with you.

The Belles(The Belles, #1)

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the belles.

The Belles, #1
 dhonielle Clayton.

Publisher  Disney-Hyperion.

Publication Date: February 6,2018.

Genre:YA Fantasy.

Format|Pages: Hardcover|440. 

 Source:  Goodreads|Library.

 CONTAINS SPOILERS

Camellia Beauregard is a Belle. In the opulent world of Orléans, Belles are revered, for they control Beauty, and Beauty is a commodity coveted above all else. In Orléans, the people are born gray, they are born damned, and only with the help of a Belle and her talents can they transform and be made beautiful.



But it’s not enough for Camellia to be just a Belle. She wants to be the favorite—the Belle chosen by the Queen of Orléans to live in the royal palace, to tend to the royal family and their court, to be recognized as the most talented Belle in the land. But once Camellia and her Belle sisters arrive at court, it becomes clear that being the favorite is not everything she always dreamed it would be. Behind the gilded palace walls live dark secrets, and Camellia soon learns that the very essence of her existence is a lie—that her powers are far greater, and could be more dangerous, than she ever imagined. And when the queen asks Camellia to risk her own life and help the ailing princess by using Belle powers in unintended ways, Camellia now faces an impossible decision.



With the future of Orléans and its people at stake, Camellia must decide—save herself and her sisters and the way of the Belles—or resuscitate the princess, risk her own life, and change the ways of her world forever 

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Gripping, magical, beautifully written story.



Wow, I’m still not over this story. I have a lot of emotions going through me while reading the book, and after. THE BELLES Is a book that you can’t help but fall in love with, despite how dramatic it was, you won’t want to pull yourself away from the story. How did I not read it sooner? I have heard about THE BELLES for few months and even some of my friends have read it. I was curious and when I came across a copy while I was at library, I decided to check it. I’m so thrilled that I did. From the first page, this book fascinated me, and it kept my attention and I wanted to keep on reading. I couldn’t seem to get enough of Camellia’s story and each page, each chapter hooked me into story more than I already was. I have read books before that dealt with beauty before. I have never read the book like THE BELLES it’s unlike any book that I have read before and that was one of the things that I loved about it. A different take on beauty and what someone is willing to do for beauty. How deadly it can be. I never thought about what a person willing to do, in order to be beautiful, or if Sophia’s case, the most beautiful.



I loved Camellia, and I hated what Sophia put her through. I loved how determined she was, to stop her. I feel like she might been the only one that wasn’t afraid of her, even after she found out how the princess was. Or at least she didn’t act as she was afraid of her. If I were her, I would been very afraid, I would mostly done everything that she asked me, just so that I wouldn’t upset her. I don’t remember the last time I hated character as much as I hate Sophia, she’s a monster. She made Amber and Camellia murder someone and then arrested them for it. She’s one person that I know I won’t want to cross. Her obsession with beauty, it’s dangerous. Sophia wants to be in control of everything and everyone and I was hoping that she wouldn’t become the Queen, because if she did, everyone would be in trouble. I do wonder if she will go after Camellia and Amber once she realized that they had escape. I do know that she will be furious and I can’t even imagine how many people may pay the price for letting them escape. I do know that somebody needs to stop Sophia before she does more damage and hurts more people.




That ending, how is the next book not out? After reading that, I wanted to dive into the next book right away. I’m not sure how long I can wait for it to be out. I’m curious if Amber, Camellia and Remy will be able to stay hidden. I can only imagine how much trouble Remy will be in if it’s discovered that he was the one that helped them escape. I’m curious if what Sophia said about Auguste is true. To me, it seemed as he started to care about her. I wonder if he was pretending because he knew what Sophia was capable of. I wonder if he will go looking for her. Most of all, I wonder if they will find a way to stop Sophia once and for all. I still can’t get the story out of my mind. I got say that it was an intense story to read, but a book that you will love. THE BELLES was the first book that I read by DHONIELLE CLAYTON and in love with author already. I’m excited to see what she has in store for us next.



THE BELLES is one of the most powerful novels that I read in 2018, and a must read. Worth every single page.

I Am Not Your Perfect Mexican Daughter.

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i am not your perfect Mexican daughter.

 Erika L. Sanchez.

Publisher  Knopf Books.

Publication Date: October 17,2017.

Genre:YA Fiction.

Format Reads.|Pages: Hardcover|344.

 Source:  Goodreads|Library.

 CONTAINS SPOILERS

Perfect Mexican daughters do not go away to college. And they do not move out of their parents’ house after high school graduation. Perfect Mexican daughters never abandon their family.



But Julia is not your perfect Mexican daughter. That was Olga’s role.



Then a tragic accident on the busiest street in Chicago leaves Olga dead and Julia left behind to reassemble the shattered pieces of her family. And no one seems to acknowledge that Julia is broken, too. Instead, her mother seems to channel her grief into pointing out every possible way Julia has failed.



But it’s not long before Julia discovers that Olga might not have been as perfect as everyone thought. With the help of her best friend Lorena, and her first kiss, first love, first everything boyfriend Connor, Julia is determined to find out. Was Olga really what she seemed? Or was there more to her sister’s story? And either way, how can Julia even attempt to live up to a seemingly impossible ideal? 

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A heartbreaking yet a gripping story about loss and grief.



I came across I AM NOT YOUR PEFECT MEXICAN DAUGHTER while I was at library, looking for a book to read. Both the title and the cover is what captured my attention first and I picked it up. I think that the cover itself captures the story of Julia, beautifully. The way she is looking out, as if she is trapped and doesn’t know what to do. Once I read the story, I know that is how Julia felt, trapped and reason that she wanted to go to college out of Chicago, because she needed escape. I can’t say that I don’t blame her. I wasn’t fond of how her mother, Ama tried to compare of how her sister, Olga did. It’s like as she tried to tell her that she was better than her. I could tell that in the beginning that she blamed Julia for her sister’s death. I understand that she was grieving but that’s not okay. I felt sorry for Ama, I did considering that she lost her child. A lot of times it was hard for me to like her due to how she treated her own daughter. Ama almost never gave her any breathing room, always critizing her, not listening to her. Ama wasn’t the only one who was grieving, Julia lost her sister too. Ama didn’t even seem to see how depressed Julia was until she end up in hospital. I know Julia didn’t make it easy on her by acting out. I do believe that she did that to get more attention and because she wanted to be heard, and she wanted more privacy. I don’t think I wouldn’t lasted as long as Julia had, I would gone crazy to wait that long to go to college.



The story was deep, and there were parts that were hard to read. However, that’s what grief is. I remember when my cousin and my best friend died suddenly, it was very hard for me. I know it’s bit different in Julia’s situation but at the same time, I knew the emotions she was going through. I believe that was one of reasons that she might wanted to find out what Olga was hiding. Maybe, but I am not too sure about that, it was closure for Julia. At least that is a feeling I got from reading the book. I AM NOT YOUR PERFECT MEXICAN DAUGHTER was filled with a lot of emotions. It was so well written that I felt as if I was going through the emotions along with Julia. Like her, I wanted to find out what Olga was hiding. I know that part of it had to do, was because she wanted for her parents to accept her for who she was. I know that she felt that her parents loved Olga more than they loved her. I feel like they were just grieving, but because Olga was so different, they didn’t know what to do with her. I do know they loved Julia too. I do wonder what they would think if they ever found out the truth about Olga, I feel like truth might destroyed them more. I think it’s the best if they never found out.




I AM NOT YOUR PEFECT MEXICAN DAUGHTER is a deep, emotional story. At the same time a story that you won’t be able to pull yourself from. A story that you will never forget. I didn’t. I am still finding myself thinking, what happened after? Once Julia went away to college? I can’t help but wonder what’s in store for Julia after. I just hope that she is finally happy.



Spectacular .